I hate myself.

six pages out of ten done for that f***ing professional project. All that to say that I do NOT have any project, that I don’t want to think about it and that it bothers me like hell because the future is still far and very long, so why would you try to enclose it in a project when you can be free, we could fly but we’re asked to plait the rope to attach ourselves. University, what are you doing to me, just leave me alone?

And btw, I made myself sick of overeating. Hello healthy life.

Oh and also. If anyone ever reads that. I’m sorry for not updating, for not answering messages, for talking about my life, for not being interesting. I’m sorry for not having met the expectations of all the ones who unfollowed me and for not be more caring about those who are still there. I would truly love being more interesting, but that’s how life is, I don’t have time to be interesting, I’ve barely time to be boring, it’s hard enough to exist at all. So… sorry. I hope everyone’s better than me.

When I first signed in on Tumblr, I thought I would make a lot of friends, have a hundred of followers and some funny asks from anon, I hoped that some people would find peace on my blog and think that my world were so much alike their’s, or even that my world could be fascinating, that the person behind this blog was someway worth knowing (oh well, aren’t we all like that? It’s completly self-centred i don’t deny it, but then it’s kind of why we’re all having blog, just showing off our person hoping that we’ll be loved, is there any other point?). idk I thought I would be like everyone else, a common tumblrian, if I could not feel myself a common girl. It appeared that I’m not even able to do that. So yeah, I’m also sorry for myself, even if i know, it’s ridiculous, and maybe everyone feels the same, maybe everyone feels alone.

That’s it we just bought the plane tickets for this summer! I’m really going to Japan, like, for real! I’ve been dreaming about going there for six years, and now it’s here. I’m going to Japan. The country with which six years ago, I fell in love, which brought this peace to my heart, and enlighted my world. I’m going to Japan.